#Journal

Well missed #wankwednesday for which the prompt was #journal but I finished this so decided to post anyway. As usual make a point of visiting Ruby's site and read the rest here.

(This is an ongoing story the last part of which you can read here. The first part is here and the second part here.  I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I am writing it).

As I sit here writing my journal I hear her in the kitchen rattling about.  I have no concept of what time it is or how long since she left me and went into the kitchen.  All I have are the marks of her love that warm me and a vague sense of time having passed.

I love her I write, I love her I write again.  I can’t seem to find the words of what has just passed yet I know I must or I will not be taken to that place that I love so much.  For her to treat me so is to teach, if I cannot then write of the lesson I have learned, then I cannot have another lesson.   I need to have written my lesson, yet still the words won’t come.

I jump as I hear a clatter come from the kitchen.   A pot the culprit, bouncing off the floor.  I turn to the page again and put pen to paper where it seeps into a large blot which I turn into a spider.  Still the words won’t come.   How do I write how she has just made me feel?  The aching and burning, becoming a faint reminder.  I shift on my knees which are beginning to ache with being bent for so long, as I do the backs of my legs sting. 

I smile as the warmth comes rushing back, today I have again learned patience.  I can wait for anything knowing that it will come now; I just have to wait and be patient.  She made me wait for a long time today of that I am sure.  There is no clock in the room so that I do not count; she removed all of them when I moved in so that I would not count.  I never know what time it is ever; just whether it is day or night.

I realise at once my lesson today; love, love is the lesson today.  She loves me, I am suddenly sure of that as I remember, I watched her in the mirror take the paddle and heard the sound of her exertion as she swung back and hit.  That grunt she made with the force of the hit each one compounded her love for me, proving how much we both need this.

I write; “love was the lesson mistress, I learned how much you love me.  I saw the love in your eyes as you strapped on the dildo and fucked me hard.  I watched you clench your fingers into my arse which you had so recently tanned with the paddle and I felt the love of what you give for me.  You let me count them as you hit, you know that I need to count.  I saw the love in your eyes as you screwed the nipple clamps on and the love shine there as you pulled the chains making the pain so exquisite.  Again as you forced my head down to watch as you fucked me with the handle of the whip.  That whip you know I hate, yet now love for the joy and the pain that the handle will come to represent and not the knotted strips which I hate.  And last the love for allowing me to come and then come again as you fucked me hard with the dildo while pulling my chains.  Today the lesson was your love.”

I sigh as I put down the pen and bend over ready for when she will come again into the room.  I do not have long to wait as I hear the door open and her breath behind me as she reads.  I know she is pleased as I feel her hand run down my back and grasp my cheek still tender digging her nails in.  With her other hand she pulls me up by the hair and whispers into my ear “I love you”.

#Peek

Well another Friday and another chance to impress  @ailsingweaver with her prompt this week of #peek
As usual make sure you read the rest here

Just a glance was all it took

To win my heart over

A little look was all it took

To make my blood flow stronger

That little glimpse beneath your skirt

A small preview of later

That partial peek inside your shirt

Made my heart beat deeper

I saw you peep above the seat

Giving me a gander

A little gaze said “hello sweet”

As I walked myself towards you

Now eye to eye we look us two

No longer furtive glances

I see you and you see me

We found what we were after

#Cloud

Well another late #wankwednesday this week for the wonderful Queen of Smut @eroticnotebook the prompt #cloud Remember and read the rest here

This is also the next part of Once Upon a Time the third part Absorb and if you want to read where it all began the prequel was Watch

I hear the car driving up the drive as I think back to when we began.  She will be a short while yet as she will do several things before she enters the room where I wait.  She will first eat the meal which is waiting for her; chicken and salad with a light dressing.  Then she will undress and shower and then after sitting for exactly a half hour, she will dress in her white leather harness and white leather corset and then come into the room.  She likes routine and everything to be just the same way.  It suits me too as I know what will happen and when, until that moment she comes through the door, then I have no idea what will come next.

My mind drifts back to that day when I became me thus becoming hers.  It was a day just like the day we first met with rain pouring from the heavens.  We were going on a picnic that day to a secluded beach nearby, it was lovely and we had been there a couple of times in the first few months alone.   It’s strange I had lived there all my life yet never knew it even existed. We went there that day with the sun shining with our basket of nibbles and our bottle of wine.  We could actually walk from my flat which was amazing.

 I loved to walk down the street with her and watch people look after her, she was an imposing sight with her long blond hair, tall and toned but not muscular.  I am wet waiting for her, thinking about how beautiful she is and the way her hair on her body seems to glisten it being so fair.  Me?  I am small with dirty blond hair; I don’t stand out when I am with her.  In fact I could almost not be there as she just appears to glow.

I hear her sitting down the chair squeaks slightly as it always does and my heart beats faster knowing it won’t be long.

That day we got to the beach and it was still warm off to the end of the beach was grass surrounded by trees that led straight onto the sand.  We laid out our blanket there and lay down with a glass of wine looking up at the sky.  We lay there and watched a cloud pass overhead not speaking just content to be with one another in the warmth of the sun.  Passing her a chicken leg I watched the way she nibbled on it delicately as I almost inhaled mine.  She lay back down pulling me with her and we kissed until I felt the rain beginning to fall onto us.  Laughing we both jumped up and grabbed all the picnic things, shoving them into the basket and running under the trees where we were sheltered from most of the rain.

We were both wet and she could see my nipples through my shirt and reached over and pulled on them hard, harder than she ever had before all the while looking at me to see my reaction.  I breathed in and held my breath as she squeezed them even harder and tilted her head to the side with a slight smile on the left side of her face.  As she let go I breathed out and felt all the blood rushing to the surface in the most exquisite way.  She held my gaze and softly whispered “kneel”.

Still watching her I knelt at her feet and then not knowing why I bowed my head to look at her feet.  She placed her hand on my head and said softly “make me come”.  Opening her jeans I lowered them to her knees and then slowly lowered her knickers and brought my head up to start licking her clit and lips.  Holding onto her arse I pulled her closer to me and inserted my tongue inside her and felt her excitement building she had never been this near so quickly.  As I sucked I felt her insides begin to tremble as she came with a rush filling my mouth with her juices and pulling me almost inside her.

When she subsided and let me go I sat back on my knees and kept my head bowed.  There was something about this that was turning me on and it wasn’t the fact that we were outside and could be caught at any moment.  This was something different I didn’t know what it was but whatever it was I liked it.  I could see her pull her jeans up and then she bent back down and tilted my head up by putting her fingers under my chin.  As our eyes locked she laughed “I just knew it, I just knew it!  We are going to have lots of fun you and me just you wait and see.”

Helping me to my feet she took my hand and we walked home holding hands.  I lost myself that day and she found me.  As I smile I hear the bedroom door open, it is time.

#Absorb

Well it's friday today (thank fuck) and another #fuckmefriday for @Aislingweaver with the prompt this week of #ABSORB (the next part of Once Upon A Time from #Wankwednesday)
Read the rest of #fuckmefriday HERE

She didn’t leave me for very long in those first few months.  She seemed to be as taken with me as I with her.  She would spend hours watching me as I pottered about the flat chattering to her about nothing.  It was almost as if she was trying to absorb me with her eyes.

Never saying much she would just sit there and watch me, occasionally closing her eyes, I fancied that she could still see me behind her eyelids my image tattooed there with looking at me constantly.  She would nod and smile at my chattering, now and then uttering the odd word or two.  But I’m getting ahead of myself yet again; let me go back to the day after the crash.

Wakening suddenly I saw her back disappear out of the door.  I didn’t know whether to run after her or not.  She’d turned my life upside down in just one day, instead I watched her from my bedroom window as she got into a cab without looking up.  I thought then that I would never see her again and lying down fell back asleep almost as soon as my head touched the pillow.

I wakened later and it was daylight and I felt something was different or wrong.  Not quite wrong but definitely different but I couldn’t figure out what.  My head ached from the crash and I lay there trying to relax hoping that I wouldn’t have to get up for pills and hoped that if I just lay there and relaxed it would be fine.  As I was about to turn over the bedroom door opened startling me into jumping out of bed and onto my feet ready for whoever was coming through it.

It was her with fresh clothes on and an amused smile on her face.  I sat down on the bed my heart racing holding my head which had started throbbing.  She stood in front of me and knelt down taking my hand from my head, handed me pills in one hand and a glass of water in the other. I swallowed the pills and placed the glass on my bedside table as she lifted both my legs and swung me back around into bed and covered me.  She then closed the curtains and kissed me on my forehead.

Years later kneeling here I can still feel her kiss as if she had burnt it there; so soft yet so hard.  I can also feel the fibres of the carpet make their mark on my knees as I think about that day.   That was the day I fell in love with her.

Later I wakened stretching to find her sitting in my chair watching me through the bedroom door and despite myself jumped again.  She just smiled but still not a word, it drove me nuts then, now I love how she can say nothing but I hear every word.  She got up and disappeared into the kitchen and I could hear her boiling the kettle.  Minutes later she stood at the door with a tray of breakfast things.  She must have gone out as my cupboards were almost bare, hence needing that job.

Placing the tray on my bedside table she hooked her arm underneath my arm and pulled me sitting at the same time placing my pillows behind me to support me.  Then she placed the tray on my lap and sat down and started spreading butter on the toast that she had made. After she was sure I had my fill she took the tray back through and then seconds later came back, pushing me slightly over she sat back down on the bed leant over and kissed me.

Every hair on my body stood on end as her hands ran down my arms so lightly making me shiver into her open mouth.  Pulling the quilt back she pulled me down by the legs until I was again lying flat and then took my pyjama bottoms from the bottom and pulled them until they were off.  I put my hand over trying to cover myself I felt embarrassed and my face flushed. I had only ever been with two men and she was the first woman even to see me naked.  She laughed as she moved my hand off and straddled my legs pinning me to the bed.  As I tried to sit up she held onto my wrists holding me there while she started to lick my clit making the blood rush to it and it to swell immediately.  Up on my elbows I watched her head as she licked and sucked at me until I could no longer see clearly and had to lie back down.  I felt her push her tongue inside me and it explore me, I could hardly breath with the force that my heart was beating with.

I felt myself begin to clench as she pushed her tongue in and out of me and it felt like nothing else I had ever experienced. At that moment she chose to stop and gently pushed one, then another, then another finger into me and slowly started to fuck me bringing me back to the edge.  Keeping her fingers where they were she moved up the bed and kissed me and I could taste myself on her lips and found myself licking her face hungrily for more as I clenched and clenched around her hand.  Laughing she brought her hand up for me to lick and suck until she was clean.  Taking my face in her hands she kissed me again with a kiss that went on forever and left me breathless again.

“I love you” I told her.  Then I blushed as how could I possible love someone who I had just met and had told me nothing about herself. She looked seriously at me then and said “I think I love you too Megan”. Putting her arms around me she held me and we lay there until I fell asleep.  This was just the day after the crash and already she was in my heart and I in hers.  I shiver thinking about that day and of the times since then as I wait, still, not moving.  I look over at the clock to see it is nearly time for her to come home, and I smile.

Once upon a time

Well another Wednesday and that can only mean one thing another opportunity to impress the queen of smut herself @eroticnotebook for #wankwednesday the prompt this week #once.  Why not read the rest HERE or have a go yourself? (this is the first of a series read the first part (which is actually the last part) : here

Once my life was boring, I was dead inside, and then she came along.  Now I have purpose where once I had chaos, and love where once was hurt and emptiness.  I kneel here waiting for her to return, I have waited for a long time, but I have patience since she found me, and can wait knowing that she will come.

I remember every second of that day years later, and will forever.  That day it rained like the heavens had opened. It was the worst, and the best day ever. I had an interview for a job that day which I seriously needed, but it must have been meant that I be on that particular street at that particular time on that particular day so I never made it to the interview, but let me start at the beginning.

I wakened late that day and with my alarm not going off I was already running about a half hour late.  Looking out of the door I could see how heavy the rain was and went to hunt for an umbrella before I went out as I would be soaked through by the time I made it to the car without one.  As is normal when those type of days start, fate was against me, I couldn’t find an umbrella anywhere despite owning one in about every colour of the rainbow. 

Giving up I grabbed a plastic bag and held it over my head and ran for the car.  By the time I got the door open my jacket was already wet and my hair was beginning to curl at the sides.  I sat in the driver’s seat looking at what was a good look until I went out into the rain.  I just hoped that I would have time to try and rescue myself when I got there.

Driving the hour to get there I couldn’t have hit any more red lights than I did it seemed that the heavens were conspiring against me to stop me getting there.  Thinking that I could take a short cut I took a left down a side street only to find road works at the end of it with a man standing there with a stop sign for what seemed like an eternity before he turned it to go.  As I released the handbrake and drove forward another car from the other side of the road works hit me head on.  I sat there not knowing what to do for a minute; I looked in my rear mirror to see blood trickling from a small cut on my forehead and it struck me as to how white I had gone.

I sat staring at myself until I could hear knocking and then became confused as I couldn’t figure out where it was coming from. Looking around there was someone standing in the rain knocking on my window.  It was her I didn’t know it then but she was going to be mine and I hers.  I wound down my window and felt the blood mix with the rain and run down my face going from red to pink and then washing away to nothing all in the blink of an eye.  She uttered two words – “Oh shit!”

She insisted I be checked over at the hospital and arranged a tow for both our cars and reported it to the police all in the time I waited for an x-ray after seeing the triage nurse.  Waiting for the doctor I was eventually seen and given the all clear and then she insisted she take me home.  Getting out of the taxi at my house I realised I had missed the interview and hung my head as I opened the door to my building.  Following me in and up the stairs to my flat I wasn’t even aware of her, thinking only of how I could get them to give me another interview and knowing that I had lost my chance.

As I turned to close the door of my flat she was there behind me closing it and I realised that she had barely spoken a word since the two she had uttered when she had seen the blood on my forehead.  I had heard her speak into her phone as she organised everything with the skills of an army general organising a mission but she hadn’t spoken to me.  She seemed confident and it sounded as if people just did her bidding without too much of a resistance by the speed with which she managed it all.  It would have taken me days to just arrange a tow never mind everything else.  I went into the bedroom and shut the door behind me and sat on the bed for a bit not sure what to do.  As I sat there the door opened and she came in.  Going into the bathroom she went in and I could hear her running a bath.  Coming back into my room she started to take my clothes off as I sat there and let her.

There was a part of me aware that this was a complete and utter stranger undressing me but I didn’t seem to mind, she made me feel safe. Pulling me to my feet she pulled my panties down to my ankles and gently tapped each foot which I lifted.  Standing up and taking my shoulders in her hands, she directed me to the bathroom and helped me into the bath where she gently washed the blood stains from my face while I watched her from a distance.  It was as if this was happening to someone else and I was watching from the sidelines.

She sat down on the chair at the side of the bath and watched me sitting there as I watched her sitting there.  After a few moments she got up and went back into my bedroom and I could hear her make a couple of calls but not hear what she was saying.  Coming back into the room she smiled softly at me, and then knelt at the side of the bath and picked up the soap and sponge and looked at me questioningly.  Not knowing what else to do I nodded and she began to wash me from my toes to the top of my legs, and then from my shoulders to my hips, then my arms all the way to the tips of my fingers one by one.  Looking at me she put the sponge down and used just her hand and the soap to wash between my legs softly rubbing my clit and lips of my vagina all the while staring at me.

Before long had passed I felt the trembling of the beginnings of an orgasm as she continued with her slow stroking and rubbing.  As I began to come I licked my lips and opened my mouth slightly which she took as an invitation and lent over and kissed me with her mouth open catching my breath as I gasped out an orgasm.  Afterwards I heard the doorbell ring and she got up and went to the intercom to answer it.  Muffled voices came from the door as I lay there in the bath and I could smell delicious smells coming from that direction.

Coming back she held a towel out and I got up, wrapping it around me and then slowly rubbed me dry and handed me my dressing gown.  Taking my hand she led me back into my living room and sat me down before the coffee table which was spread with just about every dish from the local Chinese takeaway.  Eating in silence I peeked at her from under my hair, I had never been with a woman before and I had no idea why I had let her do all she had done so far or why I felt so safe with her.

After eating I just sat there not needing to speak or do anything, just staring into space and still in shock at the day I had just had.  Sitting opposite me on the floor she stared at me until I could almost scream as I was about to say something she got up and sat beside me and took my hand and placed it on her breast which was bare under her blouse.  I could feel her heart beating fast as I slowly rubbed my hand over her nipple barely touching her and feeling it almost jump to reach my hand.

Taking my other hand she placed it between her legs under her skirt where I could feel she wore stockings and a belt.  It was unlike any belt I had ever seen as I gingerly felt my way around it and her flat stomach I could feel her soft down through her lacy pants and I wanted more than anything to plunge my fingers into her and the wetness I hoped was there.  As I was about to ease my fingers into her pants she stopped me and pulled my hand out. Still saying not a word she eased my dressing gown down over my shoulders and bent to take my nipple into her mouth it springing to attention under the light flicking of her tongue.  As I sighed she brought her mouth up to kiss mine the heat of which made me gasp.

Standing up she undid her blouse slowly releasing her chest from its confines and then slowly unbuttoning the back of her skirt and letting it fall to the floor.  I could see now that the belt was leather and didn’t actually hold her stockings up at all.  Taking a hold of the elastic which held her hair back she released it to fall on her shoulders a long blond mane of curls.  She was stunning and I was surprised at myself that I wanted to take her in my mouth and make her come.  Never had I felt attracted to a woman before, yet here was a naked one standing in my living room and we were about to fuck.

Turning around she went into her bag and when she turned around she had a dildo attached to it.  I didn’t know why I hadn’t realised that was what it was.  She walked towards me and I felt my mouth go dry and my other lips begin to moisten. Reaching the couch she took a hold of my hips and lifted me so that my arse touched the edge of it and then knelt down in the small space left and pushed the dildo into me.

Gasping as she threw her arms around me I could feel the chill of it inside me as I pulled her face down so that I could kiss her.  She slowly fucked me bringing each orgasm from me slowly throughout the rest of the afternoon again and again and again.  I had never gone so long or wanted to and she still had barely uttered a word.  Lying there as the light darkened I lay in her arms and I said even less.

That was the beginning for me, life before then no longer existed even at that point and that was before I began to know her.  Her name was Fiona and she was here for me.

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Watch

Well its late but this is my entry for @aislingweaver #fuckmefriday the prompt this week is #Watch read the rest HERE

She shook her head and kept her eyes clenched shut refusing to watch what was going on in front of her.  She could hear them and found herself opening her eyes to watch despite everything in her saying not to.  She knew she would be lost if she looked, yet she couldn’t help herself, oh how she wanted to look.

Her girlfriend stood in front of the bed with a white bodice on that brought her waist in just enough to make it so slim she knew that she could put both her hands around it.  Straps coming down from the front and back held up her white stockings on her slim long legs and her breasts sat pert atop of the bodice held up by the bones in it.  Her long blond hair was up on top of her head but hanging in parts and she looked stunning.  She held on to that thought as her eyes travelled downwards and watched the woman there licking her girlfriend’s cunt.

She knelt at her feet dressed in black leather her short black hair all tousled with the blindfold she wore.  Megan knew she also had earplugs in which blocked out all sound so she couldn’t hear what they were saying.  She watched her girlfriend’s face start to take on that grimace that meant she was near to climaxing.  She found herself starting to throb too; it was amazing to see her girlfriend from this angle and to be able to concentrate on her reactions without being involved.

She pulled against her bonds which kept her spreadeagled on the bed as she watched her girlfriend arch her back and sigh softly.  She loved how she managed to keep the climax within her only letting it out a bit at a time and experiencing it in her whole body. She knew she was dripping but she could do nothing to help herself and Fiona would make her wait even if she could tell her how much she needed fucked.

The girl stood up, Megan didn’t know her or what her name was all she knew was that Fiona owned her too.  She would visit her one day a month as she lived a few hours away, Megan was not allowed to ask about her and had to go out the days that she came.  This was the first time they had been together in the house let alone in the same room.  She was stunning and looked almost like a pixie.  She looked so delicate and slim and Megan found herself wanting her tongue on her and inside her and found herself drooling as she looked at this beautiful woman standing there with her senses taken away and only her tongue free. 

As she turned towards Fiona, Megan could see that her arms were bound behind her back in a black leather sleeve and felt her cunt lurch at the sight of her standing next to Fiona her head bowed.  She saw Fiona touch her on the shoulder gently turning her around towards the bed and Megan lying there. As her legs touched the bed she sat down and pushed herself back until she was level with Megan’s cunt and then dove down and grabbed a hold of her mound with her teeth.  With a combination of sucking, biting and flicking her tongue backwards and forwards across her clit Megan came very quickly making a grunting noise behind the ball gag she had in her mouth.

She looked up and saw her girlfriend watching her and felt herself flush at coming so quickly with someone else.  Fiona looked pleased though and was standing putting on a white leather harness.  That could only mean one thing.  Fiona walked over to the bed and unclipped both her arms and legs and made a twirling motion in the air with her finger.  Megan turned and lay face down already panting with what she knew was coming next.

She felt the bed dip as someone lay beside her she tried to turn her head and felt it held down as at the same time she felt lube being rubbed into her arsehole.  At that she felt someone pull her arse cheeks apart and the tip of the dildo push its way into her sliding easily with the lube.  She sighed behind her gag and pushed towards it trying to get it deeper and harder.  Fiona fucked her arse harder and harder until Megan thought she might do some damage until she felt her cunt clench and come with a scream which due to the gag sounded like a squeak.

At that she felt Fiona arch and come, still having the dildo in her arse and jerking it in deeper with each clench of her cunt.  Pulling out of her Megan felt the paddle hit her hard on her right cheek with a thud.  She liked the sound that she made around the ball gag as each thud hit.  Very quickly she felt herself starting to come again but as she turned she could see Fiona watching her from the chair at the side of the bed. If Fiona was there….. She turned slightly and could see the other woman paddling her, the arm sleeve now removed but her blindfold still in place.

She turned to look at Fiona again who was sitting cross legged on the chair her cunt glistening and wide open and she felt a twinge inside as she stood up and walked towards the bed.  Removing the ball gag Fiona bent down and wiped her hand across her face and then took her chin in her hand and bent and kissed her.  Megan sighed as Fiona knelt on the bed and moved to the top so that she could reach her cunt with her mouth.

As she licked and sucked Fiona the other woman continued to paddle Megan’s arse which made her bite down on Fiona’s cunt every time the paddle thudded down on her.  Very quickly Fiona started to clench and then abruptly pulled away from Megan.  “Now darling watch this.”  As Fiona rubbed her own clit Megan could see her begin to clench and tremble and then start to ejaculate her juices hitting Megan’s face and run down into her mouth which she drank hungrily.  Megan rubbed until the stream stopped pumping, “Now remember the next time darling it’s good to watch, now cunt keep thumping that bitch until she has learnt her lesson.”  At that Fiona got up and left the room and Megan heard the thud of the door over the thud of the paddle.

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Part 3 here

My Humble Opinion

Well it's #wankwednesday time and another chance to write for Ruby's challenge with the prompt this week of #shine and as I missed #fuckmefriday for Aisling also that prompt of #view

Read #Wankwednesday HERE or #Fuckmefriday HERE

In my very humble opinion

It’s the twinkle in your eye

As you view my naked body

And assess me as I lie

That makes my heart start beating

As you watch me lying there

That makes my juices glisten

And hairs all stand on end

It’s the shine on all the leather

That’s holds me to the bed

That makes you love me only

As you whip me til I’m red

As my face turns sparkly

With all the tears I cry

You kiss and suck my love dry

And bring me back into my head

So in my humble opinion

We two are meant to be

Both slave and mistress together

Bound forever eternally